Lately it feels like I’m wandering around lost with my blog. My Ativan reduction has sobered me up to the point where I feel like my blog is getting bloated with too many topics unrelated to creative writing.
What do I feel like blogging about? Well, pot, I guess, news, and various observations that hit me during my daily routine which consists of my dog, yoga, and meditation.
It’s been a chore to come up with creative stuff. I think that’s my clue that my mind is guiding me towards doing something different. I’m not sure how much of my different mind is associated with Ativan withdrawal, since theoretically the withdrawal takes several months. I don’t FEEL sick at all, just very sober and serious.
In an effort to align my writing with my head, I’ve been thinking all morning about how to change the focus of my blogging.
Other people must reach a sort of stagnation with blogging. I wonder how they handle it. Create a new blog with a fresh new outlook? Stop blogging?
In the past, I’ve just stopped blogging. But I loved the period of daily flash fiction I was doing, and hope to get back to it one day as my primary activity. The amusement of coming up with different plots and characters filled my life with laughter and fantasy. I so miss that.
Dunno, I really think I’m going through an adjustment and that I need to be patient with myself. I’m considering creating a new blog with just serious stuff so I can get serious writing out of my system for the present. Or maybe get back to gaming, where I can do fun real-time creative writing. Being able to bounce dialog off of other people is a tremendous writing boost and laughter generator. Gaming comes with its own baggage of time commitments, stress, and (bad) drama, though, so I’m very VERY ambivalent about doing it.
So… I used to spend my entire afternoon and evening working on my flash fiction stories. Now I spend that time reading the NY Times and then wondering where my sense of humor’s disappeared to. Oh… hm…
Written in response to Daily Ritual : Think about your day. Select one of your daily rituals and explain it to us: why do you do what you do? How did you come to adopt this ritual? What happens on days when you can’t perform it? Thanks for sending this prompt suggestion, kimscaravelli!